From antiquity through the early modern era
Ancient Infanticide
The narrator places the deaths at the end of a long history in which children were treated as parental property, discarded for poverty or disability, sacrificed to gods, or killed to control population. Her argument makes the crime neither timelessly ordinary nor historically unimaginable: what changes is the law and the culture’s willingness to name it as murder.
She recalls practices associated with [Ancient Rome](entity:time-recall-time-96c453380c4c), Sparta, and later Nazi Germany, alongside religious prohibitions and literary accounts of desperate mothers. The historical survey establishes the book’s unsettling question: why does the killing of children provoke such horror when societies have repeatedly permitted or rationalized it?
From the Middle Ages through 1995
The Infanticide Exception
The narrator traces a different history: women who killed newborns were often understood through seduction, poverty, shame, and abandonment. In stories from Goethe and Catalan literature, the mother is punished, broken, or driven mad, while the man who helped create the crisis can escape its consequences.
Spanish law once treated a mother’s killing of a newborn to conceal dishonor as a separate offense, then contemplated emotional disturbance around birth as a mitigating circumstance. The special offense disappeared in 1995, leaving the contemporary case to be tried as murder and mental illness to be argued under ordinary criminal law.
December 1962
The Birth of Sylvia Plath
After giving birth to her son Nicholas, [Sylvia Plath](entity:character-recall-character-1c9705c0659c) wrote to her mother about the happiness of her children and the hours she hoped to spend writing. The narrator is struck by the contrast between Plath’s descriptions of domestic joy and the darkness that would soon overtake her.
Plath’s life becomes one of the book’s most troubling examples of a mother who created work in the immediate aftermath of childbirth, while remaining vulnerable to despair. Her story unsettles any simple claim that maternal love reliably protects a woman from death or suffering.
February 1963
Plath's Suicide
At thirty, [Sylvia Plath](entity:character-recall-character-1c9705c0659c) died by suicide in her [London](entity:location-recall-location-1bfd335cdd1b) home after preparing breakfast for her two young children and sealing their rooms. The narrator later imagines the children waking to the food their mother had left, but learns that the adults who found Plath arrived before they woke.
The scene is not offered as an explanation for [Alice Espanet](entity:character-recall-character-alice-espanet-2b967799a468)’s actions. Instead, it exposes the distance between a mother’s evident love for her children and the possibility of her own destruction, a distance that the narrator cannot make emotionally safe.
March 1969
The Deaths of Assia and Shura
Years after Plath’s death, [Assia Wevill](entity:character-recall-character-assia-wevill-82c72628648e), the partner of [Ted Hughes](entity:character-recall-character-ted-hughes-611658a1f071), died by suicide with her four-year-old daughter [Shura](entity:character-recall-character-shura-54a8dc84bfad). She gave the child sedatives before turning on the gas and lying beside her.
The narrator understands the deaths as an extension of the dark history surrounding Plath’s family, but resists treating them as a neat explanation or inherited curse. The parallel deepens her inquiry into how stories make the deaths of mothers and children legible, and how easily the children themselves vanish behind the adult tragedy.
August 17, 1980
Azaria Disappears
During a family camping trip near [Uluru](entity:location-recall-location-4da41a4286b0), nine-week-old [Azaria Chamberlain](entity:character-recall-character-azaria-chamberlain-dc9f9f90aaca) disappeared from her tent. Her mother Lindy said she had seen a [Dingo](entity:creature-recall-creature-dingo-8783ea5850a6) carry the baby away, but the case became a public trial of the mother’s behavior as much as a search for evidence.
Lindy was convicted and imprisoned, then released after clothing belonging to Azaria was found in a Dingo lair. The death certificate was not corrected until 2012. The narrator recalls the case as a warning that a mother’s apparent composure can be mistaken for proof of guilt.
Before adulthood
The Narrator's Early Childhood
The narrator grows up between her parents’ homes, experiencing her mother as bored, remote, and emotionally difficult to reach. At eighteen, she learns that her mother is leaving for [Lanzarote](entity:location-recall-location-lanzarote-2adcd83b1c41) to live and work at a meditation retreat, on the premise that her daughter is already old enough to manage without her.
The departure remains an unresolved injury. Years later, the narrator recognizes that her mother seems most alive when talking about subjects outside motherhood, and that their relationship complicates every idealized account of maternal attachment.
From about age six through adolescence
Jade and Léa Become Friends
Jade and [Léa](entity:character-recall-character-l-a-0f1d3413b750) become close as children in southern France. Jade is daring, mischievous, and adept at presenting herself as well behaved when it suits her; Léa is repeatedly drawn into the consequences of her friend’s schemes.
Jade lives with a thin, possibly troubled mother and a younger half-brother, while her absent father is little more than a story. The girls share secrets, including purging after meals, and their friendship offers each a private bond that feels stronger than the people around them can understand.
During adolescence
Jade's Paris Ambition
Jade begins painting and earns praise for her distorted female figures. She hopes to attend a prestigious art school in [Paris](entity:location-recall-location-657453741ed3), and [Léa](entity:character-recall-character-l-a-0f1d3413b750) helps select a portfolio and pays for Jade’s trip to the entrance examination, partly by taking money from her own mother.
Jade later tells Léa that she has been accepted, but the cost of living in Paris appears insurmountable. A newspaper feature about provincial students produces no patron, and Jade gives up the opportunity. Léa will eventually doubt whether the acceptance story was ever true.
About eleven years before the crime
Léa Leaves for England
[Léa](entity:character-recall-character-l-a-0f1d3413b750) invites Jade to accompany her during the first week of her university year in [the Midlands](entity:location-recall-location-184f423cc587), hoping to restore the intimacy they have begun to lose. The narrator arrives at the same small English campus and lives opposite Léa, with their doors often left open and their rooms becoming an informal shared space.
Jade, who has seemed worldly in France, is suddenly shy and unable to speak English with confidence. The narrator remembers her as a fleeting, beautiful presence rather than as a close acquaintance, a memory that will later become the opening onto her investigation.
During Léa and the narrator's first university week
Jade Leaves the Campus
The narrator sees Jade mostly beside [Léa](entity:character-recall-character-l-a-0f1d3413b750) and at a campus party, where she is surrounded by young men. Once Jade returns to France, she and Léa lose contact; later messages and calls become intermittent, and Jade’s accounts of working as a model never quite settle into a verifiable life story.
The narrator retains little beyond Jade’s catlike eyes and her unusual greeting. That fragmentary memory makes the later recognition in a news report feel less like a recovered friendship than an unsettling coincidence.
When Léa is twenty-three
Léa's First Marriage
[Léa](entity:character-recall-character-l-a-0f1d3413b750) has her first child with Albert and enters a life of early motherhood that the narrator once assumed was the uncomplicated result of being in love. Years later, Léa explains that she had wanted children since adolescence, but pregnancy brought doubts about the life she had chosen.
The marriage and the children do not erase Léa’s desire for freedom or erotic excitement. Her experience becomes a personal counterexample to the belief that motherhood naturally settles a woman into a single, selfless identity.
During her first pregnancy
Léa's Affair with Fabrice
While three months pregnant, [Léa](entity:character-recall-character-l-a-0f1d3413b750) meets Fabrice, a married father at the school where she is training. Their affair becomes a cycle of clandestine hotel meetings, breakups, and returns, continuing as her pregnancy advances and unsettling her marriage to Albert.
Léa ends the affair shortly before giving birth, but contacts Fabrice from the hospital after the delivery. The secret is exposed soon afterward, reaching both families and Léa’s school. She later describes the affair as an escape from the doubts and distress that pregnancy had brought into view.
Before Erik's birth
The Narrator's First Novel
After years of turning away from writing, the narrator publishes [Inventario](entity:object-recall-object-inventario-85708a57046c), a novel about the last movements of Eugene Kenneth Brown and the ETA Madrid command that killed him. Its human portrayal of militants and its handling of the conflict provoke criticism as well as attention.
The novel sells well, is translated, and brings the narrator invitations, publicity, and a film-rights deal. She experiences herself as its author with an almost embarrassing intensity, though that identity will soon be displaced by motherhood.
Around 2006
Ritxi Meets Alice
[Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0) meets Alice, then a young model and aspiring painter, while visiting [Burdeos](entity:location-recall-location-burdeos-5e1573c514c9) on a wine-industry trip. He is a wealthy, polished heir to a family winery; she appears solitary, melancholy, and short of money. They spend an evening together, and he becomes captivated by her difference from his conventional social circle.
Ritxi imagines a life of dramatic love beside her and decides almost immediately that he will marry her. Alice, meanwhile, tries to assess his wealth and the future it might offer, though the narrator’s reconstruction of the encounter remains explicitly speculative.
In the years before the twins' conception
Jade Becomes Alice
At some point after vanishing from [Léa](entity:character-recall-character-l-a-0f1d3413b750)’s life, Jade changes her name to [Alice Espanet](entity:character-recall-character-alice-espanet-2b967799a468). Léa has no reliable account of why: perhaps Jade wanted a name that fit the social world she hoped to enter, or perhaps she was trying to leave her former life behind.
The change becomes a symbol in the narrator’s inquiry, but it provides no dependable key to Alice’s later actions. The woman’s years between her youth and her marriage remain a blank in the public record.
A few months after they meet
Alice Marries Ritxi
Alice moves from France to [Vitoria-Gasteiz](entity:location-recall-location-vitoria-gasteiz-9b7a7b569ad3), and visits with [Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0) turn into a shared life in his city apartment. Ritxi introduces her to friends and soon marries her; the social circle finds her beautiful but distant, and she does not become close to the women around him.
Ritxi’s affection and resources give Alice entry to a privileged world, but her distance from that world persists. The narrator later sees their marriage as shaped by both his devotion and the unequal power that his wealth affords.
After seven months of trying to conceive
The Couple Seeks Fertility Care
Because [Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0) feels pressed by age and wants children, the couple seeks help at a fertility clinic without waiting the year commonly recommended before investigation. Their appointments bring blood tests, scans, hormone treatments, and the language of reproductive medicine into their lives.
The narrator describes the clinic as a marketplace that turns desire into a promise of success while making repeated treatment feel like a moral obligation. Whether Alice wants a child with the same certainty as Ritxi remains unknowable to her.
During the fertility treatment
Three Failed Inseminations
After three unsuccessful cycles of artificial insemination, the couple is advised to proceed to in vitro fertilization. Each failure brings further injections, monitoring, expense, and emotional strain, while the clinic’s language continues to frame persistence as the proper response.
The narrator wonders whether Alice followed the treatment wholeheartedly, quietly resisted it, or simply endured a process she could not bring herself to stop. None of these possibilities can be established, and that uncertainty becomes central to the book’s refusal to turn speculation into fact.
After the move to in vitro fertilization
The Twins Are Conceived
The clinic transfers two embryos and freezes three more. Both transferred embryos develop, and Alice and [Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0) learn that they are expecting twins despite being warned about the added risks of a multiple pregnancy.
The narrator remembers being relieved that her own pregnancy involved only one fetus, while [Niclas](entity:character-recall-character-niclas-83a6b931d3ff) responds with disappointment. Their contrasting reactions sharpen her awareness that pregnancy and parenthood do not mean the same thing to every partner.
A few years before the crime
The Narrator's Unplanned Pregnancy
The narrator discovers her pregnancy after a contraceptive method fails. She had imagined children only as a distant possibility and is absorbed in the new life her first novel has opened; she is also unsure whether [Niclas](entity:character-recall-character-niclas-83a6b931d3ff) is the person with whom she wants to become a mother.
After several days of shock and resentment, she accepts the pregnancy and begins to desire the baby. Her story gives the novel a second maternal perspective, one that begins not with a settled wish for a child but with uncertainty and adjustment.
When the twins are born
Alice's Cesarean Birth
Alice gives birth by planned cesarean at thirty-seven weeks because [Angela](entity:character-recall-character-angela-8ec06be0ea1a) is positioned feet-first and has too little amniotic fluid. [Alex](entity:character-recall-character-alex-ad819204cb8d) is born small and medically vulnerable, while Angela is also kept in neonatal care for observation; Alice remains separated from both babies as she recovers from anesthesia.
The defense later argues that the separation and the frightening, painful birth disrupted early bonding and breastfeeding. The narrator, recalling her own experience of separation from [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a), does not accept that such circumstances determine the quality of a mother’s attachment.
On the journey home after the birth
Alice Leaves the Car
As [Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0) drives Alice and newborn [Angela](entity:character-recall-character-angela-8ec06be0ea1a) home, Alice suddenly unfastens herself and the baby and leaves the car at a traffic light. She takes refuge in a doorway, convinced that petrol fumes will kill the infant if they remain inside.
Ritxi eventually persuades her to return, promising to drive with the windows open. He later says he regarded the incident as a troubling but manageable episode, not as a reason to seek urgent psychiatric care; the narrator notes that the reported traffic incident could not be confirmed in police records.
In the months after the birth
Alice's Cesarean-Wound Dream
Alice experiences what first seems like a dream: her cesarean scar opens and a spider’s legs emerge from the wound. [Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0) finds her screaming in the bathroom after a shower and gives her a mild sedative, then helps her to bed.
The family and the au pair treat the episode as something that can be put aside. Alice later paints the wound and spider imagery, making the scene both a possible symptom and a source of art that will resurface during the legal case.
Two weeks after the twins' deaths
The Narrator Gives Birth
Near the end of pregnancy, the narrator is admitted to Basurto for an induced labor. In the pain of a contraction, she suddenly recognizes Alice as Jade, the young woman she once saw at the English university, and realizes that the notorious mother in the news had once been part of her own past.
After hours of labor, she gives birth to [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a), a small baby who is briefly taken to neonatal care because of concerns about his size and condition. The revelation and the birth arrive together, binding her new maternal life to the crime she had tried to avoid.
The first days after Erik's birth
The Narrator Contacts Léa
At home with [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a), the narrator sends [Léa](entity:character-recall-character-l-a-0f1d3413b750) a photograph and then tells her that she has heard about Jade. Léa’s initial silence unsettles her, but the friend eventually asks how the narrator learned what had happened, confirming that the story has reached France.
Their brief exchange gives the narrator a reason to reopen the connection between her university memory and the crime. She decides not to discuss the case with [Niclas](entity:character-recall-character-niclas-83a6b931d3ff), but her need to know more is already becoming an obsession.
A Thursday afternoon in midsummer
Alice Drowns the Twins
While [Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0) is away and the au pair [Mélanie](entity:character-recall-character-m-lanie-e3d9f3df9662) is out during her weekly free afternoon, Alice drowns the twins in the home bathtub. She later places their bodies on the bed and sits nearby in her nightdress, one breast exposed.
The deaths are deliberate, though Alice will later say she cannot remember the act. The narrator repeatedly confronts the physical simplicity of the crime and the gulf between the babies’ vulnerability and their mother’s unexplained action.
Four hours after leaving the house
Mélanie Finds the Twins
[Mélanie](entity:character-recall-character-m-lanie-e3d9f3df9662) returns to the [House of Armentia](entity:object-recall-object-a835f634f456), enters quietly, and finds the twins motionless in their parents’ bedroom. Alice is sitting beside them and says that they are all right now. Mélanie calls for emergency help while Alice remains almost unnervingly still.
Police and medical crews fill the house; Mélanie is questioned and later leaves Spain, but the experience follows her into the future. Her first discovery provides the case with its eyewitness account and fixes the phrase about the babies being all right in the public imagination.
That summer evening
Ritxi Arrives at the House
[Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0) reaches the house just before the judge and watches the twins’ bodies being taken away in gray bags. Alice is placed in a police car, dressed hastily and not handcuffed; she does not turn toward him when he calls her name.
He rejects offers of comfort, wants to be alone, and disconnects the telephones. The next morning he appears calm when police return to take his statement, a composure that witnesses will later remember as strikingly out of proportion to the deaths.
The first two days after the deaths
Alice Is Examined
Alice is taken to [Hospital de Santiago](entity:organization-recall-organization-hospital-de-sant-27e1bef12064) for psychiatric observation and then examined by forensic doctors. She is disoriented, appears shocked, asks where her children are, and at times identifies herself as Jade. When told what has happened, she cries out that it cannot be true.
The medical examinations find no surprise in the cause of death: both babies drowned. The details establish the physical facts, but they do not settle whether Alice understood what she had done or whether mental illness affected her responsibility.
The day after the deaths
Alice Enters Zaballa
After the judge orders her detention, Alice is taken to Zaballa prison with medication for sleep and anxiety. She spends five days in the infirmary while authorities struggle to decide how to manage a woman who may be mentally ill and has killed her children.
[Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0) does not return to the [House of Armentia](entity:object-recall-object-a835f634f456) during those days. He goes to a friend’s home in Elciego, leaving his actions and thoughts largely undocumented at the moment when the case’s future begins to turn.
During Alice's five days in custody
The Twins Are Cremated
The twins are cremated in a private ceremony attended by [Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0), his brother, and a small group of friends. The press reports little about the service, and the narrator chooses not to imagine its details.
Their deaths become public facts, but the children themselves remain difficult to recover from the record. The narrator later insists on their names, [Alex](entity:character-recall-character-alex-ad819204cb8d) and [Angela](entity:character-recall-character-angela-8ec06be0ea1a), as a way of resisting their reduction to bodies, evidence, and ash.
The day after the cremation
Ritxi Hires Carmela
Rather than seeking the harshest possible sentence for his wife, [Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0) asks his trusted lawyer to find a leading criminal defense attorney. The lawyer brings in [Carmela Basaguren](entity:character-recall-character-carmela-basaguren-49b9d7a6bcd0), a feminist advocate nearing retirement, who immediately challenges Alice’s pretrial imprisonment.
Her motion argues that Alice cannot repeat the offense, has roots in the area, and is not a flight risk. It also announces the defense’s central strategy: Alice should be acquitted because a mental disorder prevented her from understanding or controlling her actions.
Five days after the deaths
Alice Is Released
The court releases Alice on bail, requiring her to surrender her passport and report to the courthouse every two weeks. [Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0) has arranged the defense and pays the substantial bond; the decision surprises many observers, including the prosecution.
Alice leaves prison as a suspect still facing the possibility of decades behind bars. To the narrator, the release also makes her a ghost: free in public, but increasingly absent from the news and from any account of what she is doing or feeling.
The weeks after Alice's release
The Publicity Changes Course
News coverage shifts from condemnation toward sympathy, presenting Alice as shattered and speculating about postpartum depression. The narrator sees the change as a possible media strategy as well as a reflection of the public’s appetite for tragedy.
The case moves from ordinary crime reporting toward a modern Greek drama in which illness, guilt, and maternal identity compete to explain the deaths. That narrative shift will later become one of the central battles in the courtroom.
Autumn, several months after Erik's birth
The Narrator Receives the Euskadi Prize
The narrator is told that [Inventario](entity:object-recall-object-inventario-85708a57046c) has won the Euskadi Prize. She is too absorbed by caring for [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a) to respond with the excitement she once might have felt, and the recognition initially seems to belong to a past version of herself.
The prize money offers a practical way to take leave from her communications job. More importantly, it forces her to confront the feeling that motherhood has swallowed her identities as writer, worker, partner, and individual.
Autumn after Erik's birth
The Narrator Chooses the Case
The narrator tells [Niclas](entity:character-recall-character-niclas-83a6b931d3ff) that she plans to use her leave to write about the woman who killed her twins. She presents the project as a creative necessity, though its urgency and fascination are difficult to hide.
She begins outlining sources, places, and ethical questions: whether to contact Alice, how much to fictionalize, and whether a writer should act as judge, prosecutor, or witness. Her decision restores a sense of agency while turning the crime into the instrument through which she hopes to recover herself.
February after the prize
The Narrator Leaves Her Job
The narrator uses her prize money to take an extended leave from work, while [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a) begins a gradual adjustment to daycare. She tells colleagues that she is staying home to care for him, concealing the writing project that is the real purpose of her leave.
During the adaptation period, she works at nearby cafés with Erik in a front carrier and her laptop behind her. The arrangement lets her begin her research, but it also exposes the moral tension between creating the book and meeting the expectations placed on a mother.
Early in her research
The Narrator Visits the Clinic
The narrator visits the fertility clinic where Alice and [Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0) underwent treatment. She speaks with a receptionist who remembers the couple and their long course of treatment, though Alice’s experience remains inaccessible behind the clinic’s professional silence.
The visit sharpens the narrator’s uncertainty: Alice may have been an ordinary patient who wanted a child, or someone swept into a process she did not truly desire. The clinic’s commercial language offers no way to distinguish those possibilities.
November after Erik's birth
The Narrator Studies the Crime Scene
While in [Vitoria-Gasteiz](entity:location-recall-location-vitoria-gasteiz-9b7a7b569ad3) to receive her prize, the narrator drives with [Niclas](entity:character-recall-character-niclas-83a6b931d3ff) and [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a) to the [House of Armentia](entity:object-recall-object-a835f634f456). The home is empty and carefully kept, its glass facade and orderly garden offering no visible trace of what happened there.
The narrator wonders whether the neighbors treat the house as a taboo or as a curiosity. She takes notes before attending the award ceremony, where her disheveled appearance and the suggestion that she won because she was a woman become subjects of public comment.
During the first phase of writing
The Narrator Researches the Llorona
The narrator considers the legend of [La Llorona](entity:concept-recall-concept-la-llorona-6eb741abe323), the mother who drowns her children and then wanders in grief. Across versions of the story, the circumstances change, but the mother is marked by eternal punishment and sorrow.
The legend offers a ready-made framework for the crime, yet its familiar pattern risks replacing Alice with a myth. The narrator recognizes that the cultural story may illuminate public reactions while obscuring the particular woman and the unknown details of her life.
During the early writing process
The Narrator Recalls Lindy Chamberlain
A dream returns the narrator to the story of [Lindy Chamberlain](entity:character-recall-character-lindy-chamberlain-86a13585857e) and her missing infant, prompting her to revisit the investigation and its eventual correction. The case shows how a mother’s apparent coldness can be treated as evidence when the public is already prepared to suspect her.
The parallel warns the narrator against mistaking courtroom performance for truth. Alice’s stillness, like Lindy’s, may be interpreted through a cultural script rather than understood on its own terms.
During the first months of motherhood
The Narrator Reaches for Lessing
The narrator reads [Doris Lessing](entity:character-recall-character-0773ac4a1b07)’s reflections on the boredom of caring for a small child and recognizes an argument that validates her own frustration. Lessing’s life also complicates the idea that a woman who writes must be an endlessly devoted mother: she left two children in Africa, then cared for her ill son later in life.
The narrator’s appeal to Lessing does not settle the moral conflict. It instead makes visible the strain between a woman’s artistic life and the demands of continuous care.
During Erik's first year
The Narrator's Writing Falters
The narrator’s initial burst of work gives way to fatigue, distraction, and days when she writes nothing. Caring for [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a) fills the rest of her time, while the imagined afternoons of literary productivity and public recognition remain out of reach.
She considers abandoning the project or transforming it into a diary about motherhood, but neither option feels honest or sufficient. The struggle turns her own life into part of the inquiry: she must ask what a writer can take from motherhood and what that taking costs.
The summer before Alice's trial
The Narrator Plans Avignon
Believing that [Léa](entity:character-recall-character-l-a-0f1d3413b750)’s memories can help her understand Jade, the narrator invents a professional pretext and arranges a trip to the south of France. She chooses a low-cost, family-friendly hotel near the coast and presents the holiday to [Niclas](entity:character-recall-character-niclas-83a6b931d3ff) as a family break.
The narrator’s real aim is to speak with Léa alone. She has begun to treat the journey as necessary research, though she knows that every extra expense shortens the time she can afford to remain on leave.
Late July or early August before the trial
The Narrator Meets Léa
After arriving with [Niclas](entity:character-recall-character-niclas-83a6b931d3ff) and [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a), the narrator leaves the family and drives alone to [Avignon](entity:location-recall-location-2fdc01706ad9) to meet [Léa](entity:character-recall-character-l-a-0f1d3413b750). They share drinks and food in the heat, slipping at first into the ease of their old friendship rather than speaking about the crime.
The narrator experiences the evening as a temporary return to her younger self, free from childcare and nursing. Only after she has expressed milk in a restroom does the conversation turn back toward children and, eventually, Jade.
That night in Avignon
Léa Recounts Jade's Childhood
Over dinner, [Léa](entity:character-recall-character-l-a-0f1d3413b750) describes Jade’s childhood, her troubled home, their shared purging, and Jade’s ambition to become an artist. She recalls paying for Jade’s trip to [Paris](entity:location-recall-location-657453741ed3) and believing that the young woman had been admitted to an art school, only to see her abandon the plan.
Léa now suspects that some of the story may have been invented. Jade’s talent, family history, and supposed acceptance are all less certain than Léa once believed, leaving the narrator with a portrait that is vivid but unreliable.
That night in Avignon
Léa Describes Jade's Disappearance
[Léa](entity:character-recall-character-l-a-0f1d3413b750) says that Jade’s visit to England was their last attempt to restore their friendship. When Jade found herself unable to speak English and saw Léa thriving in the university environment, she withdrew and eventually vanished from Léa’s life.
Léa never heard from her again and came to suspect that Jade was escaping from a succession of lies by changing her name and email address. Asked whether Jade ever wanted children, Léa says that she never did and had mocked Léa’s wish to become a young mother.
That night in Avignon
Léa Reconsiders Motherhood
[Léa](entity:character-recall-character-l-a-0f1d3413b750) reflects that pregnancy and the years after birth brought back her doubts about the family life she had chosen. Her affair with Fabrice was an attempt to feel alive, and after the birth of her second daughter she even arranged to meet him again, though the encounter did not become sexual.
She tells the narrator that she now finds it imaginable that a mother might abandon a child or, under particular circumstances, kill one. The narrator recognizes that her own assumptions have been changing in the same direction, though she cannot accept that this makes the twins’ deaths comprehensible.
Before the trial
The Narrator Visits Plath's House
The narrator remembers walking to the house where [Sylvia Plath](entity:character-recall-character-1c9705c0659c) died and imagining the final morning there. She thinks about Plath’s children, the breakfast she prepared, and the sealed rooms, then asks whether a mother’s love should have been enough to keep her alive.
She also recalls the later deaths of [Assia Wevill](entity:character-recall-character-assia-wevill-82c72628648e) and [Shura](entity:character-recall-character-shura-54a8dc84bfad), and the eventual suicide of [Nicholas Hughes](entity:character-recall-character-nicholas-hughes-fbefd3a2b3db). These lives deepen the narrator’s sense that maternal love, creation, and self-destruction do not fit into tidy moral categories.
The morning after meeting Léa
The Narrator Returns to the Hotel
After an emotionally exhausting night, the narrator writes down what [Léa](entity:character-recall-character-l-a-0f1d3413b750) has told her and then tries to express milk. She drives back to the family hotel with a wooden train for [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a)’s first birthday, but the conversation has left her repelled by the material she is collecting.
For weeks she does not reopen her notes. The trip has brought her closer to Léa but has not supplied the explanation she hoped to find; instead, it has made the project harder to continue.
Around his first birthday
Erik Takes His First Steps
Back from the trip, the narrator watches [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a) begin to walk. His progress fills her with love and pride, and for a while she enjoys the child without forcing every moment into the book she is trying to write.
The reprieve does not answer whether she can finish the project. As September approaches, she fears that her creative impulse may not return and that she may never write another book.
The last day of August
The Trial Is Announced
While on the final day of the family holiday, the narrator reads that Alice’s trial will begin in September. She had expected a longer interval and has been close to shelving her work, but the news rekindles her obsession.
She becomes convinced that she must be in the courtroom to see Alice and hear her speak. The decision leads her to seek more leave from work, even though her savings have already dwindled and the choice will affect the family.
Immediately before the trial
The Narrator Extends Her Leave
The narrator quickly arranges an extension of her leave so she can attend the trial. She knows that the project has already cost her money, time with [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a), and ease within her relationship with [Niclas](entity:character-recall-character-niclas-83a6b931d3ff), but she cannot bring herself to stop.
The choice makes the private cost of authorship explicit. Her investigation is not merely an intellectual pursuit; it is becoming a competing obligation inside the family she is trying to care for.
September, fourteen months after the deaths
The Trial Begins
The narrator takes a seat in the sixth row as Alice appears in court beside [Carmela Basaguren](entity:character-recall-character-carmela-basaguren-49b9d7a6bcd0). Alice is composed, carefully dressed, and visibly beautiful; the jury must decide whether she committed the crime and whether mental illness deprived her of criminal responsibility.
The narrator watches Alice closely, wondering whether she will recognize her from the English campus. The proceedings make the former acquaintance feel like a ghostly presence, while Alice’s body and demeanor immediately become part of the public argument about guilt.
The first day of the trial
Alice Gives Her Account
Called early to testify, Alice says that she feared a destructive force inside herself and had avoided being alone with the twins. She describes a sudden darkness, then remembers seeing their wet, cold bodies and trying unsuccessfully to breastfeed them.
Her account moves between nightmares, a ghost, and amnesia. The narrator is disappointed by its clichés and doubts its credibility, yet sees members of the jury respond emotionally to Alice’s testimony.
During the early trial sessions
The Narrator Sees the Trial as Story
As police officers and witnesses testify, the narrator begins to understand the trial as a contest between two stories built from the same evidence. Prosecutors and defense counsel offer different interpretations of Alice’s calmness, the scene in the house, and her mental state.
She decides not to write to Alice, preserving her position as an observer. The courtroom is not yielding a transparent truth, but the narrator hopes that its competing narratives will reveal what official documents cannot.
During the trial
Dr. Leclercq Testifies
[Dr. Leclercq](entity:character-recall-character-leclercq-1f35862dd070), who has treated Alice, explains the distinctions among baby blues, postpartum depression, and postpartum psychosis. He describes Alice as suffering a psychosis in which the impulse to harm her children may have felt right to her rather than frightening or alien.
Under questioning, he acknowledges that his diagnosis rests largely on Alice’s account and conduct. The jury appears persuaded, while the narrator recognizes how difficult it is to separate a medical explanation from the story the defense needs the jury to believe.
Later in the trial
The Court Debates the Diagnosis
Two court-appointed psychiatrists challenge the defense’s account, arguing that postpartum psychosis ordinarily emerges much closer to childbirth and that Alice showed no clear signs of depression or psychosis when they examined her. They instead describe troubling personality traits without identifying a formal disorder.
One expert says that Alice may be capable of doing evil and then living with it. His blunt assessment gives the prosecution a powerful counter-story, but it does not remove the uncertainty about what happened inside Alice’s mind.
During the trial
The Narrator Calls Her Mother
The narrator phones her mother because she needs to hear another voice, but she avoids talking about [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a). Their conversation exposes how little ease exists between them: her mother is more animated about sex and personal growth than about her grandson, and the narrator recalls her childhood as a long study in maternal absence.
The call echoes the narrator’s investigation without resolving it. Her own experience confirms that mother and child can live close together yet remain strangers, complicating the assumption that biology guarantees intimacy.
During the evidence hearings
The Green Bath Appears in Court
Investigators present photographs from Alice’s devices and the green plastic bath in which the twins drowned. Forensic testimony confirms that both children died by immersion, while photographs show them as carefully dressed and repeatedly photographed babies.
The ordinary bath becomes a courtroom object, a piece of evidence that cannot explain motive. When the prosecutor finally says the twins’ names, [Alex](entity:character-recall-character-alex-ad819204cb8d) and [Angela](entity:character-recall-character-angela-8ec06be0ea1a), the narrator realizes she has known the case through generic terms such as babies and bodies rather than as the deaths of two distinct children.
During the trial
The Twins Are Named
The narrator hears the children named as [Alex](entity:character-recall-character-alex-ad819204cb8d) and [Angela](entity:character-recall-character-angela-8ec06be0ea1a) and imagines the lives that might have grown from their beginnings. They could have become ordinary, difficult, generous, or unhappy adults, but nothing in the record can recover those futures.
Their deaths have displaced their lives in public memory. The narrator’s attempt to imagine who they might have been becomes an act of mourning for possibilities that were never allowed to take shape.
During the trial's later sessions
The Narrator's Fear of Motherhood
At home, the narrator tries to discuss the case with [Niclas](entity:character-recall-character-niclas-83a6b931d3ff), but their conversations circle back to childcare and the crime. She also remembers her own early fears that [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a) might die through an absurd accident, even imagining that she could accidentally put him in a washing machine.
The fears make her feel weak rather than powerful. Her maternal vigilance cannot protect Erik from illness, accident, or chance, and she recognizes how easily a caregiver’s ordinary omissions could become fatal under the wrong circumstances.
Near the end of the testimony
Mélanie Testifies
[Mélanie](entity:character-recall-character-m-lanie-e3d9f3df9662) testifies from behind a screen and cannot look at Alice. She describes Alice’s shifting behavior: at times supervising every detail of childcare, at other times withdrawing to paint, and sometimes panicking that the twins had disappeared when they were still asleep in their room.
Mélanie says [Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0) was often absent and that she did not know how much importance to give Alice’s episodes. Asked whether Alice loved the children, she answers that Alice worried about them, if that counts as love. Her testimony leaves both care and danger visible without settling their relationship.
The day before the final session
The Narrator Meets Jakes
A journalist who sits near the front of the courtroom introduces himself to the narrator as [Jakes Ruiz de Infante](entity:character-recall-character-jakes-ruiz-de-infan-b3800d5b7def). He believes Alice’s defense is relying on a familiar insanity strategy, and he offers his own blunt theory: she did not want children and lacked the capacity to love them.
The narrator is attracted to him and intrigued by his confidence. His certainty does not solve the case, but she begins to imagine that speaking with someone equally absorbed in it might help her finish the book.
During the trial
Alice's Missing Years
The narrator sees that Alice’s life between her youth and her marriage has barely been examined. The trial scrutinizes her marriage, fertility treatment, and motherhood, but the years in which Jade became Alice remain largely blank.
Friends from [Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0)’s circle describe Alice as distant, contemptuous, and difficult to know. At a baby shower, she reportedly spoke at length about the dangers of pregnancy and seemed unmoved by the gifts, details that can be read as warning signs only in retrospect.
Before the twins' deaths
Alice Destroys Her Paintings
At an exhibition organized by [Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0) at his winery, Alice overhears a communications employee dismissing her work as a cheap imitation of Louise Bourgeois. When Ritxi returns, he finds that Alice has smashed a bottle and slashed her own paintings, staining the room with wine.
Alice says she wants to go home to the children. Ritxi offers explanations involving artistic insecurity and jealousy and does not seek psychiatric help. The episode later appears as a possible clue, but the narrator cannot know whether it predicts the killings or is simply an isolated act of anger.
On the final day of the trial
The Narrator Misses the Ending
The narrator arrives expecting the last session to provide a dramatic climax and planning to have lunch with Jakes afterward. She has hidden the plan from [Niclas](entity:character-recall-character-niclas-83a6b931d3ff) and arranged for her father to collect [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a), while imagining that the conversation with Jakes will unlock the book.
The prosecution argues that maternal cruelty need not be madness, while [Carmela Basaguren](entity:character-recall-character-carmela-basaguren-49b9d7a6bcd0) asks the jury to consider Alice’s illness and the lifelong weight of what she has done. Alice says she hopes to meet her children somewhere and ask their forgiveness; then the trial ends without the emotional revelation the narrator had hoped for.
As the narrator leaves the courthouse
Erik Is Hospitalized
On the way to lunch with Jakes, the narrator sees missed calls from daycare and [Niclas](entity:character-recall-character-niclas-83a6b931d3ff). [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a) has a high fever and is difficult to wake, and Niclas has taken him to the hospital. The narrator ends the lunch before it begins and drives back to [Bilbao](entity:location-recall-location-bilbao-bd30d869c9c7) consumed by fear and guilt.
At the hospital, she worries that she had noticed signs of illness but had taken Erik to daycare and silenced her phone so she could attend court. The case she had been following now collides with her own responsibility as a mother.
That evening and the following day
Erik's Meningitis Is Diagnosed
Doctors perform a lumbar puncture and diagnose [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a) with viral meningitis. The illness is not judged immediately dangerous, but he remains under observation because his fever is high and he is unusually subdued. [Niclas](entity:character-recall-character-niclas-83a6b931d3ff) stays beside the narrator as she watches the needle enter their son’s spine.
After a second night in the hospital, Erik improves enough to go home. The narrator’s relief is mixed with remorse, and she promises that she will do better rather than treating her attention to the trial as harmlessly separate from family life.
The day after the final session
The Jury Finds Alice Guilty
Jakes calls the narrator while she is returning home with [Niclas](entity:character-recall-character-niclas-83a6b931d3ff) and [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a) and tells her that the jury has found Alice guilty of the double killing but accepted the defense of mental incapacity. The narrator is stunned and unable to discuss the verdict at length.
The decision chooses the defense’s account of Alice’s state of mind without erasing the deaths or establishing what she experienced. The narrator is left with only a few months of leave and a book that still lacks a settled explanation.
After the jury verdict
The Court Orders Outpatient Treatment
The judge substitutes psychiatric treatment for prison and orders Alice to receive treatment as an outpatient rather than enter a secure psychiatric facility. [Carmela Basaguren](entity:character-recall-character-carmela-basaguren-49b9d7a6bcd0) describes the decision as a practical response to the limitations of the penal system and to Alice’s family resources.
The outcome intensifies questions about class, care, and criminal responsibility. Alice avoids imprisonment, but her treatment and future are now tied to the supervision of her husband and the institutions that must monitor her recovery.
After the verdict
The Narrator Lists Her Hypotheses
The narrator sketches several possible explanations for Alice’s actions: fear turned into violent control, self-destruction after receiving too much too easily, postpartum psychosis, a mother’s sense of power, or a conspiracy between Alice and [Ritxi](entity:character-recall-character-ritxi-f260c97e1ef0). None can be established from the evidence she has gathered.
She concludes that the truth may combine all of these possibilities in unknown proportions. That uncertainty becomes a literary method rather than a problem she can solve, and she returns to the idea that writing transforms evidence without making it conclusive.
Near the end of the book
The Narrator Reconciles Creation and Care
In [Lanzarote](entity:location-recall-location-lanzarote-2adcd83b1c41), the narrator works alone for a few hours while her mother takes [Erik](entity:character-recall-character-erik-4fc8bf5a5e7a) out and [Niclas](entity:character-recall-character-niclas-83a6b931d3ff) goes surfing. The temporary calm lets her write, but she knows that the figures and deaths she has been shaping will return when she rereads the manuscript.
She admits that she pursued the story for herself, driven by an impulse to enter the muddy moral territory around Alice and to make others enter it too. She also hopes the book can serve as recognition for [Alex](entity:character-recall-character-alex-ad819204cb8d) and [Angela](entity:character-recall-character-angela-8ec06be0ea1a), whose lives have been eclipsed by the fact of their deaths.
At the close
The Narrator Claims Her Responsibility
The narrator returns from the dark territory of imagining herself in the place of a mother who kills. She does not claim innocence: at times she has tried to understand Alice and has drawn the reader toward that understanding, aware that the effort itself carries power and guilt.
She accepts that writing is an impulse she cannot simply choose away. She hopes that the work may still offer tenderness to the twins and end the day by resisting death’s final claim over their memory.